All of this will be a tentative work in progress until I can figure out exactly how I am going to do this but I guess things have to start somewhere. I'd like it to be a confession and also a help to others. With such a brutal and painful subject though it could be hard to do both.

I've never been one to shy away from who I am. Who I truly am. It has taken me a while to be comfortable with openly saying what it is about me that makes me a little (okay, a lot) more difficult to love. To get out of bed sometimes. To stick out my job..

Depressed. Clinically depressed. Throw in some anxiety in there for good measure. Full diagnosis.

That's a part of me, will always be a part of me. No amount of fighting it will change it and make it go away. I can only learn to live with it, cope with it and maybe one day learn to use it to my advantage. It comes and goes. Sometimes I can laugh with it. Other times I want to run away as far as possible from it; and there is only one option for doing that..

So maybe it's time I got into the full details of it. So people can open their eyes and realise how useless, and downright insulting, "Snap out of it" really is. Depression, anxiety and mental health condition will always be stigmatised, laughed and mocked, misunderstood and shunned out of general society though.

It chose me.